Drink up, baby down
mmm are you in or are you out
leave your things behind
cuz its all going off without you
excuse me, too busy writing your tragedy
these mishaps, you bubble wrap
when you've no idea what you're like;

Saturday was esplanade with pyx and ll again, pretty productive and we lunched and dinnered together, went home at 10.30 or so.

x




Have you ever had the feeling like you didn't belong?
that maybe the world would be better off without you because you were different?
or that feeling when you feel that not a single place in the world could have you;
where you feel so lost
you're neither running away nor keeping still;
because, really, you have no where to go.


Hell, no, you've never.
all your life was a bed of roses.
yeah, granted you had your share of emotional deprivation, yes.
but that doesn't give you any right to judge others based on your pathetic life experience.
i have not seen all the world, yeah maybe;
but what have you seen, with your narrow-minded psyche?
so screw you, screw you for belittling others,
making decisions for them like that.
because you have no clue, not an inkling of an idea at all
what its like to run away at 2am in the morning
with the wind blowing your hair, trying to blow away all your worries,
to help you leave them behind;
and first you find yourself out of breadth,
because nothing is blown away and your chest still heaves in agony,
but gradually, you run faster and faster, bathing your entire volume of blood with adrenaline
until you reach a mental black; this is when you feel like your soul got dug out and your body hollowed through
because without your jet-black past,
you're nothing.



\so let go, let go
jump in, well what are you waiting for?
it's alright,
cuz there's beauty in the breakdown.

\We're a picture in my mind
And when I wanna find you
I just close my eyes
You'll never be that far from me
So don't say goodbye 'cuz
You'll never be that far from me
I'm telling myself that

Saturday was spent at esplanade trying to study productively but omg steph and jamin were SO distracting! hahahha we were like bloody lampposts but they were so sweet so wtv.

me: omg stop staring at them ll
ll: yeah yeah then stare at you!

HAHAHA WTF.

and jamin is rly good for steph and viceversa kinda thing so please please dont break up! So yeah studied quite productively for quite awhile before heading to paragon for dinner and omg i love the lady at paragon's body shop. she let me redeem my $60 worth of rebates which were expired since last year! Thank God i love you bodyshop lady! i think it was cuz she pitied me since i was alr a star loyalty member and havnt claimed any of the $60. and i bought this rly cute lace tank which costs a bomb but wtv, its so bloody cute it makes me look dammn skinny!

church today made me feel like my soul was cleansed, like i could begin to study harder, forget past mistakes and hurt to start anew again.

but talking to you tonight just ruined everything

I will remember you
And all of the things that we've gone through
There is so much I can say
But words get in the way so
We're not together
I will remember you

 

X

no more mcs, back to fucking school tmr. work cca work routine. fml is used so often it becomes a cliche already. i feel so sick of everything couldnt even laugh during math tll just now. and math tll used to be like aka laughter therapy for all of us but hell, life's been just too much like you. i'm obsessed with ryan cabrera's 'Photo' now, idk why.


i crossed our spot today and didnt look back. so hey, maybe i'm really forgetting you

\Cuz everything you do and words you say

Finally saw Ro on saturday! havnt seen you for so long i almost forgot what you looked like alr, ro! but then again i'll never forget that qb face so yeah attempt to study with them at the library ttly failed again, pigged out with milo mcflurry AND twister fries with yx and ll after ro left, and before this i alr had yoshinoya with ro omg. can feel my fats weighing me down. and omg, like magically overnight, i have 3 identical items with ll, and the same tanktop as yx. all thanks to those cotton on stuff that are like 3 for $x or 2 for $y. and yeah ll sent nick off at the airport that morning, i feel a bit bad for allthatshit not being as nice as i could have been but oh well, ll someone helps me make up for it

friday was hk cafe and island cremery with nic and ll, ate like pigs as usual and then to town with ll where we went to etude house for ____ walked around and talked about all sorts of things with ll and headed home around 8.

I'm sick, pharyngitis again and the doctor said i was losing my voice. went to a nice nice doctor today omg he's so much nicer than that son of a bitch. so yeah thank God i didnt have to sit through lit timed essay for tkam i havnt even finished reading that book omg. and cpl finally couldnt catch me with my undone geog lorms! so yeah whatever you guys say; i'm a pidgeon and all; being sick has been a blast.

really wish i was going for blg, they're so awesome but why must they come on a thursday! and ll/bob prefer paramore, so oh well. 've been watching cruel temptation that korean show like 9hours straight ytd, maybe thats why i fell sick. but i never thought i'll like korean stuff i thought its just like a passing phase but omg that guy in cruel temptation is so damn cute i want to touch his face

I remember every look upon your face,
The way you roll your eyes,
The way you taste;
You make it hard for breathing.

why is it that messenger icons i want green are not and those that i dont want green, are?

you know it all takes my breadth away\

just came back from the silver cross with my granny, and both of us agreed the doctor was absolute bullshit. we had to listen him talk cock about his fucking raffles schooling experience and how i shouldnt run away from school stress and all that shit. son of a bitch, our family's full of specialists, who the fuck are you to tell me all this shit? i mean, we're paying you, so just give me the mc you bloody asshole. why the hell wasnt the nicer doctor there today, make us wait so long somemore. even my granny said i'd get even sicker after i listen to him talk cock.

on a brighter note, i'm in the comfort of my home at noon, with good food from crystal jade and no canteen food! but yeah thank God i still have food. and no physics! no school! we should be living this life everyday.

boyslikegirls next week, i really hope you guys can make it cuz i wanna go for both paramore and this. screw the school and moe's idea of co-curr-bullshit-icullar-activities. and ohyes, new york, ily this saturday please?


\i'll do anything for you